I woke up this morning and didn’t want to get out of bed, you know why? Because I knew there was an enormous mess waiting for me outside my bedroom. Clothes, clutter and dishes, o my!

I’ve spent the past SEVEN years seriously concentrating on being emotionally, physically and spiritually well and I have made great strides. When I first started my journey, I had failed out of three colleges and was no closer to getting a degree or doing anything with my life UNTIL…..I seemingly lost my mind. It was the best thing that ever happened to me.

By “lost my mind” I mean that I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder (as if my ADD weren’t enough to tackle on its own). The diagnosis started a series of events that goes something like this

• Entered a year-long outpatient therapy program
• Decided to re-attempt college
• Graduated with a four year degree in THREE years

So you could say my decision to focus on myself turned out pretty good. Now I not only had a degree but I also FELT amazing. I had better relationships, I was happier, and I even started my own business.

Ever since, I have been dedicated to continuing the practices that enabled me to successfully live with Bipolar and ADD and to learn new practices as well.

Recently, I started to take inventory of what is currently holding me back in my life. What are the things that stunt my happiness? What are the things I consistently dread in my life? What are some things that are holding me back?

And here we’ve come full circle back to my messy, cluttered house.

I hate cleaning. I also hate not being able to find what I need when I need it. I love having a tidy house but no matter how hard I try, I can’t keep my house CONSISTENTLY tidy.

So I’ve decided to embark on a journey, a fearsome, troublesome journey. To use all of the skills I’ve learned in my life, all of the knowledge I’ve collected about human behavior and habit building and apply it to….

Ugh…

Cleaning my house.